A short story…

You wake up in the morning. A little groggy, look up at the ceiling and all you can think about is what to eat for breakfast. You get up, walk past the mirror and instantly start to feel down about how you look. Thinking “Why cant i just change? Why is this so hard? Everyone else seems to find it so easy…”!

You visit the toilet. Sit down and your stomach hits your thighs. You sigh and hold you head in your hands wondering when will this ever shift.

You make your way to the kitchen. The cupboards are all full, yet everything seems so empty. Food choices are so confusing… “I’ll eat porridge, as all the olympians eat that and they all look great. However, its carbs! Someone on the internet said that carbs are bad first thing in the morning. I’ll eat an apple instead. But wait… someone at work said that the sugars in an apple are bad for you! I’ll just have a coffee – it’ll be fine. No sugar or milk though, as thats all bad for me…. isnt it?”.

So you drink your coffee and for a moment you feel ok. The nice caffeine rush. The sun rise is breaking and its going to be a nice day. You turn to get washed and notice your shadow on the wall… wow, even my shadow is fat! Is this how people see me?

You get dressed and your trousers now become difficult to put on. You do a little jump to get your bum in. You poke down the bottom of your belly into your trousers and try to put the button in. The waistline is digging in so much that you’re convinced its going to cut your skin one day. You’ve now got an overhang and have to find a top to wear to cover that up. A nice baggy one will do… something that doesn’t cling too tight to your stomach and constantly remind you of how big you are.

You get to work and convinced that EVERYONE is staring at you. “that fat git… why cant they just diet and workout, its not that hard”… thats what you think they’re saying behind your back! The steps to your office appear to be a mountain and you’re worried that getting to the top of them and managing to breathe like a “normal” person will soon be gone.

Summers just around the corner. Time to invest in some lighter clothing, through fear of over sweating and then being the “smelly fat person”.

You get home – exhausted! Sit down. Starving as all you’ve eaten is a salad from the work canteen as you didn’t want people to think you ate crap, however the crap in the cupboard now is literally shouting at you. You cant drown out the screams.

You open the fridge – oh, one chocolate sandwich wont hurt… i haven’t eaten anything all day! You take that first bite and for a second, a split second, its just you and something that actually makes you feel human. Its sweet, its soft and it tastes so good. A bit more chocolate wont hurt.

You still havent really eaten that much – you know this. So you order a pizza. The menu in the draw says it only has 400kcal per slice and the government say i can eat 2,000 a day, so 3 slices wont hurt…. will it?

30mins later, you’re hungry again and the pizza arrives. It smells sooooo good. You tuck in, turn on the TV and before you know it 7 of the 8 slices have gone and you’re wondering if you should really eat that last slice. Its late now, bed soon, but you dont want it to go to waste – one more slice wont hurt!

As you finish it, the math quickly goes through your head. You’ve actually just eaten over 3,000 calories. You start to feel miserable. “Why did i just eat that! Why couldn’t i have stopped at 3 slices, like i planned!”.

You go to get ready for bed. You take your trousers off and the release on your skin feels so good, but reminds you of how fat you are. The shadow of your body on the bed reminds you again and you feel fatter than ever before! You lay down on the bed and its creaks… “thats a new creak” you say. You turn over, turn the light off and close your eyes….

A tear rolls down your cheek… All you can think of is “why…. why me!”

You wake up in the morning. A little groggy, look up at the ceiling and all you can think about is what to eat for breakfast……

and so it repeats!

 

 
Until you have experienced every single emotion in the above short story, then i’m afraid you will NEVER KNOW what its like to be overweight. You cant even come close to comprehend how hard it is to make a start at changing your life…

The amount of respect i have for my clients who come to me, having reached true “rock bottom”, but still manage to find that strength to make a change, will inspire me to the day i die.

I’ve been there! I know how hard it is! I’ve walked every step that you will walk in these coming weeks, months and years as you decide to change your life. No body knows it as well as i do, i can assure you.
When you look for someone to help change your life, make sure they not only know what they’re doing, but make sure they have experienced what you have been through and due to go through. I will be the first to tell you that it is the hardest thing you will ever do – but with the right support, i promise you it is possible….

Know it, Feel it, Live it

 

 

 

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